Love and Trust

   LOVE -

  I think, if love really exists, I was in love with my friend, Steve. I thought of him all the time and I didn't just want to be with him all the time, I wanted to share new things with him. I wanted to experience life with him. But my feelings have slowly changed over the past several months, and I think of him a lot less often. I no longer think about trying new things with him by my side. I honestly thought I was in love with him. But who is to say that love really exists?

   What if love is just a made up concept? What if love doesn't exist? The one thing that keeps me sane is believing that love is not real. Because if love exists, then it can happen to me and if it can happen to me, then I have the ability to become one of those awful bridezillas that I hate. I don't want to ever believe in love again. If I choose to believe in love, then I can be hurt and have my heart broken again. And so, I don't let myself be foolish enough to believe in love anymore.

   Trust -

   Trust is too easily given and not often earned. Don't be trusting because people will just use you and tear you apart and you will die inside. Trust needs to be earned again and again and again for all of eternity. Don't trust somebody just because they proved in one situation that you can trust them. Make them earn your trust for the rest of their  life.

   I have learned, in my short eighteen years of life, that you shouldn't trust anyone. Trust is one of the most special things in life. It's more special than your virginity. It's more special than love (especially since love doesn't exist). Don't trust anyone because nobody will ever be completely trustworthy. Everybody will break your trust eventually.

   And those are my feelings on love and trust.